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Name: Fat Mark
Birthday: 4/29/1990
Gender: Male
Interests: GOD, Bass and guitar. Sometimes singing. Acting. Fighting overly large ferrets. Setting things on fire. Punk, emo, and hardcore music. Songs that give me goose bumps. Hangin' wit my homies. Government. Cookies. Not... pigs. Manatees. The word crochet. Manatees crocheting. Dropping It like It's hot. Being random and confusing (like so). Errrm....
Expertise: Whatever I feel like! GOSH!
Occupation: Government
Industry: Textiles
Message: message me
Member Since:
8/17/2005
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| For my whole life I've had a problem: I'm not scared to death. I'm quite comfortable and fear isn't a thing that grips me usually. Now most of you are asking the question "Why is this a problem?". Allow me to explain.
I believe in Hell.
I believe that Jesus died on a cross so I wouldn't have do spend an eternity of pain. He wanted to be with me. Why is this reason to be afraid? Because I know a lot of you don't believe what I do. But before you run away and say "Alright he's going to get preachy and tell me I'm a sinner and blah blah blah" PLEASE STAY. Hear me out. I'm not the kind of person that shoves what I believe down other people's throats and you will NEVER see me standing on a street corner with a sign that says "Turn or burn!!!". But it hit me that if I believe what the Bible says about Hell and sin is a reality than I can't really say that I care about you unless I at least offer it.
So here it is: God say that we have all messed up and we are on the path to Hell and we will be there forever. But because he loves us so much he sent his son Jesus, to take the rap for us and be killed. Now the Bible says that because he did this all we have to do is believe in him. Simple right? Saying "Jesus I believe you died for me and I want to follow you" can actually save you from Hell? Yes it can. This is a free gift in the most pure form of the word free. But I warn you this, if you except Jesus be prepared for a wild ride cause he's going to want to change your entire life. But I know that I wasn't happy until I gave it all to him so a life change couldn't be more welcome.
I love you all very much. Please don't take this as me being judgemental because I'm definately not. God is the only true judge. Thanks for reading.
-Daniel
PS. For further reading check out these verses:
Romans 3:23
Romans 6:23
John 3:16 | | |
| I lie here paralytic inside this soul
Screaming for you till my throat is numb
Some of you are aware that I've haven't had the best week of my life. The kind of week where you'd just rather phase out of reality rather than deal with the situation, but unfortunately that's just not how things work.
Now a lot of people would say that God uses these kind of situations to teach us things... Well he did. It wasn't untill last night though that it fully hit me though. I was laying in bed listening to music (as I so often do) and the song "Rebirthing" by Skillet started to play. Something broke down inside of me and I started to tear up. The lyrics were screaming exactly what I needed to be saying right then.
Rebirthing now, I wanna live for love, wanna live for you
I was hurting from a thousand little cuts that I'd been trying to heal all by myself for a long time. But God doesn't intend for us to walk by ourselves. Earlier this week my amazing friend Amber sent me a message saying this:
"hey! thought about you today and just wanted to say hi! God has laid you on my heart recently and I just wanted to let you know I am praying for you. Hope your doing well."
I sat staring at the computer screen at a complete loss for words. I needed to hear that so badly it hurt. Thank you Amber. God has used you in so many ways in my life.
Last night, when everthing came to a head, I died. I know that sounds a bit dramatic but bear with me. I let go of all the hurt and I let God do the healing that needed to be done. I exhaled my last breath in the hurt and depression.
Breathe for the first time now I come alive somehow
There in the dark, breathing my first few breaths, I knew that God was doing something incredible in my life, and maybe in the life of those around me.
I know some people in my life who are going through some extremely hard times, and when I'm depressed my first instinct is to just ignore that so I can focus on my own pain. But God used a couple people in my life to show me that I haven't experienced the worst pain in the world, and there are other people who are hurting much worse. My heart goes out to everybody who's feeling hurt right now. If you're going through a hard time and you need a shoulder to cry on guess what? I've got two.
I've got a clean slate in front of me and I'm going to let God do the drawing now.
-Daniel
Verse 1
I lie here paralytic inside this soul
Screaming for you till my throat is numb
I wanna break out
I need a way out
I don't believe that it's gotta be this way
The worst is the waiting
In this room I'm suffocating
Pre-Chorus
Feel your presence filling up my lungs with oxygen
I take you in
I've died
Chorus
Rebirthing now
I wanna live for love, wanna live for you and me
Breathe for the first time now I come alive somehow
Rebirthing now
I wanna live my live, wanna give you everything
Breathe for the first time now I come alive somehow
Right now
Right now
Verse 2
I lie here lifeless in this cocoon
Shedding my skin cause I'm ready to
I wanna break out
I found a way out
I don't believe that it's gotta be this way
The worst is the waiting
In this room I'm suffocating
Pre-Chorus
Feel your presence filling up my lungs with oxygen
I take you in
I've died
Chorus
Rebirthing now
I wanna live for love, wanna live for you and me
Breathe for the first time now I come alive somehow
Rebirthing now
I wanna live my live, wanna give you everything
Breathe for the first time now I come alive somehow
(I come alive somehow)
Bridge
Tell me when I'm gonna live again
Tell me when I'm gonna breathe you in
Tell me when I'm gonna feel inside
Tell me when I'm gonna feel alive
Tell me when I'm gonna live again
Tell me when this fear will end
Tell me when I'm gonna feel inside
Tell me when I'll feel alive
Chorus
Rebirthing now
I wanna live for love, wanna live for you and me
Breathe for the first time now I come alive somehow
Rebirthing now
I wanna live my live, wanna give you everything
Breathe for the first time now I come alive somehow
(I come alive somehow)
Right now (I come alive somehow)
Right now (I come alive somehow) | | |
| I was just involved in an epic battle to the death with a black widow spider in my garage. The fiend had it out for me, but me and my garden hoe stood firm and emerged victorious! We Texans don't start fights, we just finish them. Strength and honor,
Maximus Danielus | | |
| Peter Parker: You said a husband's got to put his wife before himself.
[puts the ring in her hand]
Peter Parker: I'm not ready...
Aunt May: But what happened? You seemed so sure.
Peter Parker: Yeah... I uh... I hurt her, Aunt May. I don't know what to do...
Aunt May: You start by doing the hardest thing, you forgive yourself. I believe in you, Peter. You're a good person, and I know you'll find a way to put it right.
[Places the ring on the TV]
Aunt May: In time... That sequence of dialogue really caught my attention sitting in the movie theater. It made me ask a question I hadn't really considered before: Am I capable of forgiving myself? The answer? I wasn't sure. I can't count the number of times the words "I hate myself" have escaped my lips. After I've failed time after time it's easy to want to unleash vengeance upon myself. It sometimes feels like I'm nothing more then failure incarnate. But does forgive and forget apply to myself? It's hard enough to forgive the one's I feel have done wrong, even when I have no right to be a judge. I was made to love. But for some reason I find it even harder to forgive the person I see when I look in the mirror. Only me and God know all the mistakes I've made. But I've come to the conclusion that any type of grudge will erode your heart, even grudges held against myself. So right here and now, with whoever may read this as my witnesses, I'm going to do something I haven't truly done in years. I'm going to forgive myself. Daniel Mark Kreipe, I forgive you. Psalm 55:22 tells us to cast our cares upon Jesus. That which has weighed me down for so long is finally off my chest. I give it up to Jesus the only true judge in Heaven or Earth. In such a small moment I have found freedom again. Ladies and Gentlemen, Being alive is one thing. But feeling your soul come alive is something far more incredible and valuable. Get it while it's hot. Alive,
Daniel Oh yes, I know this tension that you speak of
We're in the palm of a hand making a fist
It'd be best for one of us to speak up
But we prefer to pretend it does not exist
And you can't see past the blood on my hands
To see that you've been aptly damned
To fail and fail again
Cause we're all guilty of the same things
We think the thoughts whether or not we see them through
And I know that I have been forgiven
And I just hope you can forgive me too
So don't you dare blame me for
Prying open the door
That's unleashed the bitterness
That's here in the midst of this
Sometimes we live for no one but ourselves
And what we've been striving for
Has turned into nothing more
Than bodies limp on the floor
Victims of falling short
We kiss goodbye the cheek of our true love
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| Yeah sorry for the lack of posts. I've been busy as anything lately. Plus I lacked the desire to get on. Anyways... I've been thinking all day about people's tendency to put themselves and others down. I mean I know most of the time they're just joking but why is that funny? I'm not saying I'm blameless in this area cause I'm certainly not. I've certainly become quite adept at putting myself down and there have been times when I get a laugh at others expense. But quite frankly I'm starting to hate it. Wouldn't it be better if we tried to build people up with what we say? We live in a world full of depressed people who never see the good side of themselves because nobody ever takes the time to show it to them. We're to busy being negative. I for one am going to get down on my knees and pray for forgiveness here in a moment for all the times I've used someone else as a joke. And when it comes to myself... I'm always the first to call myself a loser or an idiot. But that needs to stop too. Because all I'm doing is saying that it's okay to brutalize yourself with words. I'm done. I added a link to SilverChange's purevolume site. I'd really appreciate it if you'd give our songs a listen. Laterness,
Daniel It's the smell of hot summertime trash,
it's the city noise of a busy street
it's a train derailed and two car head on freeway crash
each time we meet
"and if it comes as some sort of surprise," she said
"that I seem so composed,
I've kept this moment closer to my eyes," she said,
"than the glasses resting on the edge of my nose."
shadow am I!
a question of a person, no said reply
wolf am I!
and shadow cast on the sheep as I pass by
shadow am I, or like a
wearing-black-socks-and-white-woolen-locks
wolf am I, and shadow.
she was grace and green as a stem,
but I walk heavy on delicate ground
(((...as I go showing off again,self impressed by how well I can put myself down!!
and then go again, to the next further removed level
of that same exact feigned humility!!!)))
[this for me goes on and on to the point of nausea]
shadow am I!
like suspicion that's never confirmed
but it's never denied
Wolf am I!
(((no, "shadow" I think is better,
as I'm not so much something as the absence of something)))
So SHADOW AM I!
the material world seems to me like a newspaper headline-
it explicitly demands your attention
and it may even contain some truth
and what's really going on here?
one day the water's gonna wash it away
and on that day, nothing clever to say.
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